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What a Cry Baby

Nervous Breakdown #1 of 2010, and about 100 more to come this year.

I cannot take this anymore.

I have probably the worst possible mix of teachers from my school.

I get 6~8 hours of homework a day that I do NOT have the time to do.

I have one hour of detention left to serve for supposedly breaking the "No eating on the P.E. field rule" when I wasn't even on the field in the first place.

I have 27.5 hours of Drivers ED left to complete, then 6 hours of drivers training.

I have Biology and Math tutoring Tues.-Thurs.

I can't take this.

Yes I am crying...like I said, I'm having a mental breakdown right now and all I'm doing is cursing at my computer screen of Biology drabble that I just deleted out of anger.

It's 12:51 AM, I'm tired from 4 hours of Biology, I took a break but I'm still exhausted...

I HATE MY TEACHERS SO MUCH.

My AP Biology teacher is like 13491 years old and he REFUSES to retire.

He's not teaching ANYTHING and we have to learn everything on our own.

He makes us go for zero period at 6:55AM almost everyday, but WE DON'T F*CKING DO ANYTHING THE WHOLE HOUR.

I am SCREWED for the AP Exam. (Yunni, mention anything about a screwdriver, and I will blow.)

He assigns SO MUCH HOMEWORK because we have to teach ourselves, BUT WE'RE ONLY STUDENTS. WHAT IF WE HAPPEN TO LEARN INCORRECTLY?!

"Mr. UT, may I ask you a question?"

"No."

WTF. I hate you old man.

And my MATH TEACHER.

She literally zooms through the lesson, ranting on and on, insulting people, blahblahblah, and by the end of the class period, I have no idea wtf just happened.

And I get a crap load of homework in that class too.

I've been screwing over my work and studies, but I am seriously not going to get into college at this rate.

Thus, the tutoring for three days a week.

My english teacher is awesome. I love him and all, but he assigns SO MUCH WORK.

I CAN'T HANDLE ALL OF THIS AT ONCE.

People always say "OMG. Me too!" or "I know!", but when I compare schedules, their teachers and homework load are NO WHERE NEAR MINE.

WHY DO I ALWAYS GET THE FRIKEN DICTATOR TEACHERS EVERY YEAR!?

Eff this.

I'm going to go to a Junior College and be a hobo on the street and live in a cardboard box for the rest of my life.

This society sucks.

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I really need someone to talk to.

I know God is always there, but it's not the same as having a friend.

Even though he is a better friend than anyone else out there...

I think he's trying to tell me that I've been slacking off in our relationship too much...

That I'm trying to do everything by myself again, and obviously, it won't work.

So, God, I'll try again.

Please help me stay on track with you.

I don't want to feel lonely anymore.

I can't handle this stress by myself.

Please help me.

Also help me maintain a real relationship with you.

Not because I benefit from it, but because I want to.

Because you are the only one who will always listen to me, always be there for me.

You're the best friend that I can never find anywhere else.

I pray to you in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010 @ 12:48 AM
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